From 32 year old me to 31 year old me - fuck 2020 has been quite the year no? And what it is June - now almost July - I can't even believe that I'm 32 now - I still feel like 26 year old me... anyway - here are my reactions to the Year 31 goals:
- Say no more often; remember you don't owe anything to anyone; I'm getting better at this - at work, at home and with my family - I will admit that it hurts to say no to people when you are so use to saying yes but the reality is I can no longer say yes to everything and everyone.
- Stop stressing out, you should only worry about the things that are in your control; bhahah I should have read this list this morning when I was having my work melt down - this is probably a life lesson I will need to continue to learn perhaps something we all need to work on.
- Develop skills that will help you continue to grow your career; LOL I don't even know where I want my career to go right now - do I want to keep being this program manager of sorts? Chief of Staff? Ad Hoc - catcher of all things in the air? Looking for skills outside of organization and execution...maybe back track to education, writing and writing poetry.
- Take advantage of all the professional development that work provides you; I lined up some items and they were unfortunately postponed due to COVID19 - I need to supplement this with some online/virtual learning... also in need of a mentor - it has been a couple years now - I have my council of people that I turn to but need "my person"
- Meditate; Yes - also crying and screaming into the air
- Drink more WATER; this one was not as hard as I thought it'd be
- Stick to a skincare routine - you are going to get wrinkles but you still need to you know put on sunscreen and all that ish; been trying all kinds of things - still haven't landed on one thing
- Look in the mirror at least once a day and tell yourself that you are beautiful bitch - eres la mas gorgeous girl in the fucking world and don't you forget it; I maybe do this once a month...
- Lose weight for the sake of your own health, hold yourself accountable to it; seek help; document it, be healthy; I've lost 17 lbs since December - which too me doesn't feel like enough and I know I have a long way to go - goal is to be stronger and more physically fit
- Fine tune your green thumb; meh - Adrian will probably say I can do better - I kill way too many plants :/
- Build yourself a realistic routine; low key shelter in place has helped me with this - can I work from home forever?
- Plan at least 4 trips a year to recharge; they can be long, short, one day; need to rethink this and maybe do driving trips
- Buy yourself and Adrian bikes and bike!; we kinda did this - I bought Adrian a bike for his birthday and I inherited an old bike that we (Adrian fixed up)
- Give Adrian more hugs and kisses; guys I am so bad at this :(
- Take the dogs out for walks more often; again shelter in place has helped a lot with this
- Sit outside and enjoy the outdoors; yes definitely enjoying our movie nights outside
- Fuck negative energy; girl - yes seriously- I can officially say - for the time being - I have zero negative people in my life.
- Write, Karen - you don't have to fear "it not being good enough" - dude just write - remember how good you feel after each time you write - even if it is just a little; I wrote a little - and I am recommitting to writing more here - starting today - on the real real - I write when I am angry and sad - today has been a day
- Explore hosting my own PODCAST, be more active on social, be an open book - let it come naturally- fuck it if ppl judge you - "sharing is Karen"; I don't even know what I would talk about LOL - IDK I'll rethink this one...
- Visit the place where your parents were born/raised; keeping this on the list since we can't really go right now and I really want to take my dad with us
- Save money - reality check - you need to save hella money to retire early; this is happening - I think I am also going to need to start looking into other sources of revenue/income bc I don't want to work for the "man" for another 30 years
- Practice your creativity more often; for a minute I got into making bracelets and embroidery and then stopped...:/
- Go on a daily walk - find time; morning walk to work, get off one stop early, take a break during lunch (you tend to solve problems during walks), after dinner, figure it out - it will be pay off in the long run; definitely doing this and again due to shelter in place it is easy - just need to be consistent - and not let ppl try to take over my lunch time walk
- Read more books, blogs, articles, girl be inspired; been doing this - maybe need to actively share what I am reading and write some kind of reflection
- Find community, it is okay to make new friends; hahaha - this really hasn't happened - I think I've been become a bit more open with folks at work but only a tiny bit - maybe time to admit to myself that I will only make internet friends LOL hi people reading this
- LET GO OF TOXIC PEOPLE AND TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS, talk about it if you have to - if people don't love you as you are - you don't need them and they don't need you; as mentioned above - good bye one more time to the negative ppl - you know who you are - so if you are creeping - hi hello - nice to know you still want to know what I'm doing
- Write letters, to yourself, to your mom, to Adrian (homie deserves so many love letters); again I acknowledge that I am not so great at this...
- Play music - it makes you happy - you deserve to be happy; been doing this. doing this now.
- Sell stuff, succulents, plants, crafts, art, clothes - be the curator you are - chicXicana - share it with the world you know you want to; guys - did I mention that I have my own office/studio space in my house - so let's see if I find the motivation to do this!
- Spend time with family, immediate, extended - you need familia; this one has been hard bc of Covid19 recently - I need to try harder
- DYE YOUR HAIR WHATEVER COLOR YOU WANT for fucks sake! Lately I've been kinda okay with letting my gray hair grow out - let's see how long that lasts
to recap 31 - I think it taught me that I need to create space for myself.
xoxo, chicXicana
p.s. working on year 32 goals next!
